'Wasting Away'

• "Hello Gorgeous, why isn’t there a ring on that finger yet?”
  
• “You need to get out more!”
  
• “I know someone who is rich and handsome for you, too bad he’s married”
  
• “Hey, I know.. we can join a gym.. I’m SURE you can find a guy there”
  
• “Did you see that guys eyes? He’s handsome.. I’m gonna go talk to him for you, I’ll let you know if he’s single”
  
• “What is wrong with you girl? It’s like you’re just wasting away.”
  
• “I have two guys in mind for you”
  
• “Don’t you worry, some day, the right one will come along”
  

I think I was doing ok until I realized that 50% of all conversations I have with this person and the next are all about me being single and needing to find someone. Literally 10 minutes ago my boss and his friend stopped by my office to tell me I need to find someone and they are on the hunt to help me out! After deciding that I need someone rich that owns land, they left to their meeting.. On their way out they decide to burst through my door and ask what height I prefer.. not knowing I have customers in my office who are looking at me completely confused. I tell them.. those are my wonderful bosses who have decided that it’s time I find someone. After a few chuckles back and forth about how embarrassing it is, they leave. Only to return 30 seconds later and open my door by saying “make sure its not a blind date, ALWAYS see the guy first”.. with a face the color of a tomato I laugh and say, “I hear ya on that” and they leave again.. for 45 seconds and my door opens again .. “theres some construction workers across the street, have you checked them out yet?” Mind you, these are complete strangers.

“God willing, some day, a nice man will come into your life.” A phrase my Dad has gotten pretty use to telling me over the last 3 years. It kinda makes me feel like im part of the statistic that casts a title on divorced people.. as if we really ARE wasting away by being alone. Maybe it’s time to start opening my eyes again. Maybe people should understand that life IS ok by yourself. Maybe life would be better if I were to find someone. Maybe life would turn upside down again by meeting the wrong someone.

Maybe I’ll just continue the funny conversations people have with me about this… Who knows. But for now, I want you to know.. I’m O.K. I know it’s hard to believe, but I am. I’m O.K.

I think.