There I stood, playin the game

After a few life lessons, you learn to be suspicious of people. You can spot a 'player' a mile away, fend off a 'line' someone is feeding you and you can definately stay away from the dredded 'game' that we as humans fall so easily into playing with each other.

I decided to go spend the day at the mall with my daughter last weekend. After leaving Victoria's Secret, we noticed a guy in his mid 20's start to follow us. He was talking on the phone but stayed right behind us. I was paying attention to him the whole time and when my daughter finally said "this guy is following us", I hung a quick left into the food court. The guy hung up his phone and said 'excuse me?' I turned around and he started talking. Or should I say flirting. He asked if I was married. Asked me if I was in college and when I said no, he says "You're NOT in college???? How old are you???" I said, "I'm almost 30 what is this about?" and he raises up his hand and says "High Five GIRRRL You're looking GREAT, I would have pegged you at 22 easy.. let me guess, you're babysitting???" "hahaha, No shes mine" another high five "You can't even tell you've had a kid, you're by far the hottest Mom I've seen here today" At this point, I'm thinking.. ok come on, you've fed me all the lines known to mankind that get to a woman. But he kept on, and there I stood.. playing along.

I knew he was full of shit and I knew everything he was saying was rehersed (sp), line for line that he uses with everyone, and even though I hate when people do that, I guess my ego needed a boost.

After a few minutes of us giggling and high fiving <~ is that a word?? He finally asked if I could help him win a 'contest' (he was selling magazines).. he said it would take 2 minutes of my time. I listened to his sales pitch, which was very good!! But still said no in the end. He was upset and said I was his first no of the day. I said sorry and he went on.

Feeling suspicious, I kept my eye on him for the next 45 minutes as we ate lunch. Time after time, I watched him with his surprised eyes and flirty smile give women high five's over and over.. and each one of the women looked exactly as I did.. aware of the game but flattered enough to stay and play.

I could only imagine the talks he has with his buddies at the end of the day about how gullable us women are!!

Kids!

Ugh! What a day.

It is raining outside, the sky is dark and gloomy. Although we desperately need rain, I hate it.

Yesterday, my daughter was working on my last nerve of the day. Time and time again I asked her to clean up her mess and time and time again she ignored me or only picked up half of it. After being frustrated by trying to cook dinner and clean at the same time, while trying to keep on top of her and her responsibility, I yelled at her. I hate when I yell. At the time, you feel like you just can't get through to them or that somehow a raised voice will sound more stern or serious and will get them to listen better.. but it doesn't. It just shows them that you haven't perfected the art of self control. Everytime I raise my voice to her, I regret it the next day. I guess it makes me feel like a failure in a way. Raising kids is a challenge in itself and doing it alone is an even bigger challenge.

Hats off to any single parent.

Guess I just needed to vent! Thank God for blogs!!

Chaotically Cluttered

I never knew a house could hold so much.

After years of cleaning up after the 'storm' of divorcing a drug addict, I am still at it.

'Wasting Away'

• "Hello Gorgeous, why isn’t there a ring on that finger yet?”
  
• “You need to get out more!”
  
• “I know someone who is rich and handsome for you, too bad he’s married”
  
• “Hey, I know.. we can join a gym.. I’m SURE you can find a guy there”
  
• “Did you see that guys eyes? He’s handsome.. I’m gonna go talk to him for you, I’ll let you know if he’s single”
  
• “What is wrong with you girl? It’s like you’re just wasting away.”
  
• “I have two guys in mind for you”
  
• “Don’t you worry, some day, the right one will come along”
  

I think I was doing ok until I realized that 50% of all conversations I have with this person and the next are all about me being single and needing to find someone. Literally 10 minutes ago my boss and his friend stopped by my office to tell me I need to find someone and they are on the hunt to help me out! After deciding that I need someone rich that owns land, they left to their meeting.. On their way out they decide to burst through my door and ask what height I prefer.. not knowing I have customers in my office who are looking at me completely confused. I tell them.. those are my wonderful bosses who have decided that it’s time I find someone. After a few chuckles back and forth about how embarrassing it is, they leave. Only to return 30 seconds later and open my door by saying “make sure its not a blind date, ALWAYS see the guy first”.. with a face the color of a tomato I laugh and say, “I hear ya on that” and they leave again.. for 45 seconds and my door opens again .. “theres some construction workers across the street, have you checked them out yet?” Mind you, these are complete strangers.

“God willing, some day, a nice man will come into your life.” A phrase my Dad has gotten pretty use to telling me over the last 3 years. It kinda makes me feel like im part of the statistic that casts a title on divorced people.. as if we really ARE wasting away by being alone. Maybe it’s time to start opening my eyes again. Maybe people should understand that life IS ok by yourself. Maybe life would be better if I were to find someone. Maybe life would turn upside down again by meeting the wrong someone.

Maybe I’ll just continue the funny conversations people have with me about this… Who knows. But for now, I want you to know.. I’m O.K. I know it’s hard to believe, but I am. I’m O.K.

I think.

Failed Miserably!

After reading a few articles on Oprah's website, it led me to a quiz titled "Inauguration Quiz" - Test your knowledge on all things inaugural.

http://www.oprah.com/survey/world/20090112_inauguration

Ok, I went to school.. I passed the tests, hell I was at the top of the class.. I'm taking the test just to make sure my memory is serving me right............

-- THUD --

Out of 10 questions, I answered 1 correctly. ONE! And if the truth is known, I guessed on that one!!!!! So where was I during these lessons? I know I was there.. musta been the class I had JONATHAN in.. so it's his fault I failed so miserably.. had he not had those gorgeous blue eyes and handsome smile I WOULD KNOW THIS!!!!!!!

Damn men!!!!!!!!

Ain't No Sunshine...

(So many blogs written and never posted!)

Yanno, summer time gets really really hot and you just can't wait for it to break so you can breathe again.. but dang it.. I'll take summer over winter any time. At least the sunshine!! No sun is expected for the next 10 day and that royally sucks!!

I want sunshine!!

Happy New Year!